Wounders. We have all been them.
After all, we live in a broken, wounded world.
2013 came with many wounds - the passing of my father-in-law, the passing of a grandmother, the passing of our unborn baby. And with these wounds, I became a wounder.
Ever heard the phrase, "hurt people hurt people"? It's true. (And my poor husband got the brunt.)
I think that's why this past year, I found myself hanging out with one particular
girl in the New Testament a lot. I just feel like I “get” her a little, and if
she knew me, she would “get” me.
(See her full story here.)
I don’t know her name.
The Bible doesn’t tell us.
But we instantly sense her shame.
See, for 12 years Mark tells us that this woman suffered from
“constant” bleeding.
A lot of scholars think it was a hemorrhage of the womb, so that means vaginal bleeding for 12 years.
Twelve years.
Constant.
And with this kind of bleeding, under the Jewish law, she
was legally "unclean."
Anyone or anything she touched would be legally “unclean.”
So it may not be a stretch to assume that for 12 years this
woman couldn’t attend synagogue, couldn’t hug a friend she passed in the
market, couldn’t hold her husband’s hand or pick up a baby.
What would this do to your self-esteem, reputation … your heart?
Twelve years of being called “unclean.”
Twelve years of separation.
The physical wound was nothing compared to the emotional one.
Can you relate to her a little? What wounds are
hurting you today?
Maybe it was her cutting words. His unfaithfulness. A dad
who wasn’t emotionally involved, or a mom whose expectations you couldn’t live
up to.
It could be that this Valentine’s week only brings you pain
because you haven’t met him or you miss him.
And what do you do
with this hurt?
Maybe you deny it.
Maybe you dwell on it.
Or maybe you, like me, turn to people or stuff to fix it.
Not too long ago I was worked up with worry. I had to go to
the mall to return an item.
I walked into the mall with one bag and walked back out with five.
Popping shopping pills.
I’m guilty.
I frequently find myself telling one girlfriend about how
the other girlfriend hurt me. I call it “venting,” but let’s call it for what
it is – gossip.
Rubbing a little gossip ointment on the wound.
I’m guilty.
But instead of turning to shopping, gossip, social media, a new man, job success or way too many margaritas for healing,
what if we do what our friend does in Mark 5?
She turned to Jesus.
And she didn’t just turn to Him.
She turned to Him with faith.
“I will be
healed,” she thinks.
And when she does, her bleeding immediately stops.
But that’s not enough for Jesus.
Physical healing is never enough for Jesus.
I love that word “kept.”
He kept after her
until she was drawn out of the madness of the mob who marginalized her and into the
presence of the God who sees her, knows her, loves her.
And He does the same with you and me.
He keeps after
us.
Keeps after us
until we see the success, the shopping, the new man, the new figure ... can’t cure us.
He keeps after us
until we step into His presence.
His presence is healing ointment for our deepest wounds.
Because in His presence, we are seen, we are known, we are
loved.
In His presence, He says to her...to you...to me,
This is REALLY good, J. Maybe my favorite snippet of any of your writing. Thanks for typing it into existence. :)
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DeleteI swear that God sends me messages through you because this is the second time that I've written a song that's quoted something you've said.
ReplyDeleteSo glad God is using this site. That is what I pray for!
DeleteSad for your hurt. We still feel pain too. Love how your words help. Love Bishops
ReplyDeleteLove you so much Sheree! What would the Bishop family do without y'all?
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