Why I Shouldn't Write a Blog

I’ve never wanted to have a blog.

Why?

Well, I’ll tell ya.

Here are just some of the reasons:

1. There are millions of blogs already out there. No need for another.

2. My life seems too ordinary to write about and my mind too simple to inspire.

3. I could have eternal writer’s block after this first post.

4. I could get hate mail.

5. I already have a big mouth, so will a blog just make it bigger?

6. The blogs I love have these cool, “artsy” photos of their life. These people can turn a McDonald’s burger into a frame-worthy picture! Me? Not really the “artsy” kind, and the burger is in my belly before the thought of a photo.

7. She’s a better writer than I am.

8. I could get hate mail.

9. No one will read it or like it (except for my mom).

10. I’m going to make theological, grammatical and intellectual mistakes. A lot of them.

11. The joy of writing could turn into a chore or pressure I put on myself.

12. And did I mention I could hate mail? J

Okay. There ya have it. Why I shouldn’t write this blog.

Wait a minute …

Hmmm…

As I look over my reasons for not having a blog I’m realizing that I don’t have a reason at all.

That list of 12.

Those aren’t 12 reasons.

Those are 12 fears.

I fear others’ thoughts and judgments of me.

I fear inability and not measuring up to her or him.

And even deeper than those fears, there lies a pride.

Fearing the way I am perceived, fearing MY inability or MY ability compared to others, is wrapped up in ME.

So if I don’t have a valid reason to not write this blog, I think I will.

After all, what if God uses this blog to refine me?

What if He uses it to hack away at those ugly fears and chisel away at my stinky pride?

I am asking God to take my list of 12 messy, fear-filled and prideful thoughts and somehow use me in spite. He did it with 12 messy, fear-filled and prideful guys 2,000 years ago. Maybe He’ll do it with me.

I feel dumb admitting I’m scared of this blogging thing.

But I promised myself that this blog would be a place of honesty, a place where I can practice being authentic in a world where I’m so good at pretending.

So this is it – the first post. It’s out there. (Gulp.)

A new year and a new blog.

This should be a fun adventure.

Happy 2014!

(What adventure do you plan on taking in 2014? Please comment! I can’t wait to read them! Wow. I sound desperate. New blogger jitters.)